You made us share bunk beds
bubble-baths back-seat car-rides
& every second weekend.
At the footy, you made us share the esky
for a foothold to see over the heads on the hill
bought us salt‘n’vinegar samboys
- when my favourite flavour was BBQ -
& a single can of home-brand soft drink
that Mick always backwashed in.
He was the son of your body
I was the son of your woman
& you couldn’t even share her.
Oh, it wasn’t like Oedipus
when I slew you each night in my dreams,
but the vengeance of Zeus against his false father
Cronos, who ate babies
as they birthed from the Mother’s womb.
You said they were dead
stillborn brothers & sisters
but when I kicked you in the guts
out they spewed perfect & pink
covered in your gall.
I killed you a thousand times
after the backhanders you dealt
& the poisoned scorn of your tirades
I vowed a thousand more bloody deaths
for the tears of my mother.
You taught me to share
but you shared nothing
not a hug nor kind word.
When I listened to your beer-soaked
good-nights as you tucked in your son
I pretended to sleep when you bade me terse dismissal.
Table manners were a sham for you shunned the table
said we disgusted you
I wished for an edge to my butterknife
& pissed on your toothbrush before bedtime.
Your harsh words in raised voice
echoed through my childhood
& if I fought back feeble words & blows
raised only your scorn & more pulled backhanders.
Did you but love me as well as you despised
we’d have grown old together
telling stories of tribulation
training wheels & tying shoelaces.
My first day at school
you barely slowed the car
depositing me alone without backward glance
the tears of classmates seemed too pitiful to shed.
You taught me some useful things
like lifting the toilet seat & putting it back down
& always turning out the light
& reading your mind
& sharing everything with your son.
You taught me to hate & it was one thing
- in your eyes - I did well.
Some day, old cunt
I’ll teach you to share too
when I visit your grave & take a long, warm piss
for you to share with the worms
spit bile on your headstone
& the only tear will be for regret
that 2000 wishes didn’t kill you sooner.
Monday, January 25, 2010
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