early morning alarm-clock radio
it was Wednesday
I knew immediately upon waking
for unlike any other day that day
I actually had a reason to get up: it was pay day
I usually take an hour or so to clear my head
in the morning, but that day I only needed 17 minutes
acutely aware in my bones I'd gone
longer than 24 hours without a fix
nauseous bus fumes mingled with brown-tongue
coffee residues accosted me on the way to the bank
I imagined the fillings I'd have on my kebab for breakfast
that helped the nausea but crabs
in my stomach clawed it inside out
- sometimes having an over-active imagination
can have negative physical side-effects –
I wiped my mouth on a napkin six minutes
after transacting every last dollar from my bank account
I literally fucken inhaled that kebab
giving my fragile digestive system a real workout
but it took care of my all-important daily
dietary intake & it was nearing beer o'clock
thirty minutes after transacting every last dollar
from my bank account I stared into the bottom
of my first schooner of XXXX for the day
& went to pay the bills
for an arse-hangin'-out-the-back-of-his-trousers
dole-bludgin'-loser like me there were five of 'em
RENT
PHONE
POWER
FOOD
DRUGS
& not necessarily in that order
fifty-two minutes after my dole-day ritual
of fortnightly transacting every last dollar
from my bank account
I crumpled my rent receipt, abandoning it
to the gutters of the concrete jungle
my small fortune effectively reduced by half
economists say that you shouldn't
"pay more than a quarter
of your income on rent"
I decided there & then that my
Final Notice electricity & overdue phone bills
could join the rent receipt in the fucken gutter
it was time for a fix
one hour & 25 minutes after my dole-day
ritual of fortnightly transacting every last dollar
from my bank account
I was drunk & slothing in a beer garden
half listening to irrelevant conversations
composing bad poetry in my head: just waiting
it's like that sometimes
drugs just have to happen to you
sure you might ring someone
& they'd greet you like a long-lost friend
but it's all on false pretences
you're only there for the drugs
'cos they've got the drugs
the conversation is clouded by druglust
because that's what it is sex
& the deal is fore-play
so like clockwork two hours after paydirt
I struck up a conversation with a fellow
welfare recipient we drank & drank hard
our mouths running free
I duly accepted his offer of a spliff
in reverence to the ritual:
the quick fix
Monday, January 25, 2010
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